Carmelite Sister Martyrs of the Immaculate Heart of Mary, C.S.M.

April 26th, 2025

We make absolutely no secret that we desire to live totally INDEPENDENT of the counterfeit synodal “church” that Our Lady of Fatima warned about. To be in union with the counterfeit church is NOT to be in “communion with Rome” (as we so annoyingly hear; that’s a synodal talking point by the way), but being in union with Robert Prevost’s counterfeit church is actually “union with Babylon”, and the Book of the Apocalypse tells us that in order “not to partake in her sin” we must “depart from her.” This isn’t hard… yet even the sheep lack courage to fight for the truth and choose rather to seek validation from a world that crucified a Perfect Man. As Father Paul Kramer so brilliantly told me, “when the rule of law breaks down it is necessary to operate independently” because “it is better that GOD be obeyed.”

With all my heart I wish there was an intact hierarchy right now and genuine leadership to obey, but obedience to sin is not Catholic and never has been Catholic. The only thing that can fix the current state of the Church is a valid Pope consecrating Russia to the Immaculate Heart of Mary in union with all the bishops of the world. Protestants and jews receive more charity than authentic Catholics. Though we do not hold the sedevacantist view of the chair being vacant since 1958 and that there have been a shortage of valid sacraments for 60+ years (though we do believe that we are still in an interregnum since the death of Pope Benedict XVI being the last valid pope), them being treated as “sub human” for caring about the Church is beyond me.

If you know what the definition of actual schism is according to Canon Law, you would know who is really in schism and who isn’t, and it’s not the sedes, I can assure you. The lack of charity towards them and even the “you’re a sede” name calling is totally foreign to the magnificat, the Holy Ghost’s fruit of charity, and is a form of gaslighting to make people shut up. We won’t. Because we desire to love God and neighbor in the most perfect manner possible. This begins with not making deals with the devil (being in “union” with Babylon) and treating others in the Church with respect who question the single narrative of thought and don’t blindly obey because “obedience” (that virtue has been totally distorted by the way and the Freemasons know this). A valid Pope who consecrates Russia WILL unite the flock. We need a priest and property where we can simply live in a single hermitage with two rooms, a kitchen and a place to pray the Divine Office, on or near the Mass. We as women know our limitations and desire to be protected and led by an orthodox and charitable Father who believes in our hidden mission. If you know of a priest, or property with a simple cabin, will you please share this, help us spread the word like wild fire and message us through our contact page?

I am so happy that it will be just the two of you. You will avoid so many issues and drama by not opening your future hermitage to others. However, Since you sell your rule book, which is a blueprint for living the life of a Carmelite Sister Martyr, you can encourage those who seek to join you to live the rule individually or with another person in their own location. This is what I intend to do shortly while making adaptations for my particular circumstances. That is why I am so thankful that you have made your rule available for purchase and have a website and a blog to support the living of the rule and a Catholic life in general. I do hope that you will continue this hidden apostolate when you move into your hermitage. It is such a godsend for those who want to live a hidden life but are not able or are unwilling to join a canonical order or to become a diocesan hermit.

~Anonymous Third Order Carmelite~

We desire to live an authentic Catholic religious vocation WITHOUT compromise of the Mass and Divine Office with the strict use of the Pre-55 rites and rubrics, because the Mass and Office are our life, and we know what a privilege it is to be present at this glorious sacrifice, but we also want God Himself to be worshipped in the BEST POSSIBLE MANNER. As Father James Mawdlsey said, we need to be striving for so much more than mere validity. You may contact us directly through this website on our contact page where either one of us will reply. We created this site for prayer requests, for helpful resources regarding our rule and charism (we sell copies on our menu tab for those who wish to have a copy or you can read it directly on this site) and for our Etsy shop. Please peruse our website (it looks much better on the computer verses looking at it on the cell phone). It was a labor of love for Our Lady and we created it in hopes to lay out why our desired way of life is so needed for these apocalyptic times, and God willing to keep this site up if we hopefully see this dream become a reality.

Story of Carmel and the Marian Vow and how I miraculously met Aflavia:

This desire of a sort of marriage between Carmel and the Marian Vow has been of long standing. It all began with my visit to the Franciscan’s of the Immaculata, back in 2016, and I read Father Stefano Manelli’s powerful book called The Marian Vow. The aspirant quarters so memorably had a large statue of Our Lady of Fatima surrounded by two photographs: Saints Padre Pio and Maximilian Kolbe, with a quote by the latter that read,

“Let the Immaculate do what you cannot.”

The sisters breathed Mary. Everything was “Ave Maria!” and to radiate Mary’s charity they so memorably sang to me as a drawing with my name and “welcome” was displayed with Jacob’s latter reaching heaven. How could I not smile through my tears? When I entered Carmel not long after, the hunger for the Marian Vow never dissipated; in fact, with each passing month of my novitiate, the need for it only intensified. In fact, before pursuing Carmel, ALL the orders I discerned, first, took the Marian Vow, because let’s just say that was MOST important to me. I flew to Italy to join an order specifically for that vow. I discerned a total of three orders before entering Carmel and it was all for that specific vow.

Deep within, I always wanted that Marian Vow with the Carmelite spirituality, but I could never find it as most Carmels…turned their nose up at this glorious self offering created by Maximilian Kolbe. As my novitiate progressed I talked to two very wise priests, one providentially was in the Marian Vow and he taught me how to apply it to my life in Carmel and he, to this day, is my favorite priest in the world because I have never seen a priest display a love for Mary so deep, but he also had Our Lord’s unique, and sincere, kindness. The other priest was a Carmelite Monk from France who tried to help me discern whether or not God did indeed wanted Carmel with the Marian Vow- and whether He wanted it at the Carmel I was in or elsewhere. I gave all of these desires to God and discerned it carefully and finally the priest from France said words I will never forget.

It was as though Our Lord was giving me a demand through him. “Do not tell the mothers these desires you have of taking a fourth vow to Mary, if it is truly the will of God and not your own they will approach you. If you are called to take this vow somewhere else- they will send you home.” He said all of this with the intent to make sure I was not doing my own will, but God’s. My specific question in that novena to Therese was: “does Our Lady want a sort of marriage between Carmel and the Marian Vow”? I loved the cloister and wanted nothing but that (minus those terrible twice a day drab recreations), but does Heaven want this as well, after all? I decided to write the following oblation prayer to Therese at the start of her novena in 2019, asking her if this desire of Carmel smothered in the Marian Vow was God’s will:

My Dearest Sister Therese, my chosen sister of heaven and earth. I beg of you the following graces: To reach transforming union with Mary alone, for the complete fusion of our wills. You who said knew the will of God by the desires He placed on your heart, I too have many desires. They would seem impossible to the world, but through your intercession, I am sure they will be fulfilled in me. My sister, obtain for me the grace that Mary will unite Herself to me more closely than She has with any other creature. That I may be Her favorite child, That I may love Her like She has never been loved before. By being Her victim of holocaust. I must die, Mary alone will remain. That I will be Her host body, heart and soul. I will indeed look like me, but it will be all Her; thus, Her Heart will have to triumph in me. For Carmel and the Marian Vow to come together in marriage through me, the way Our Dear Lady asked for it to be done. Finally dear Therese, I beg of you the grace to never go more than three minutes without thinking of Mary, eventually not even an instant, but you know my weakness. Help me to faithfully carry out the practice of the presence of Mary. To live and die with Mary. To live and die for Mary. In a word, to become Mary. May Mary completely possess me. I sell my soul to Her. May transubstantiation be fulfilled in me, just as the simple bread and wine become the most Precious Body and Blood, make me immaculate, dearest sister. Lastly may Our thrones in heaven never be separated, as I know Mary introduced us, Amen.

I have recited this prayer nearly every day since 2019, and I call it my personal Marian Vow. This was written on the 24th or 25th of September, 2019, to be read multiple times a day for her novena ending on Therese’s October 3rd feast day, and providentially enough, during that time, I was also reading up on the life of Maximilian Kolbe, the founder of the Marian Vow, and writing a skit to perform on the feast of Christ the King for October (one of our future sister martyr Patrons) that was a reenactment of his heroic death. On the feast of Saint Michael and on Therese’s feast itself, my choir stall “happened” to be located directly below a statue of Saint Therese where the sisters perpetually were placing tubes of roses at her feet leading up to October 3rd. After siesta I proceeded early into None since it was one of our yearly retreats and I was pleasantly STUNNED. I looked at my choir stall and there were pink and red rose petals ALL OVER. During the chanting of the psalms, the sisters recounted to me that they saw the vase of flowers knock off the statue “by themselves” and shatter petals of pink and red over my entire choir stall.

There was no wind; we were inside the building. The sisters left the petals to surprise me, so when I came back to the choir after siesta I had nothing but petals. Later that day I was able to see how there were no petals left on the roses; usually there remains at least a few. Mother later told me it looked as though they were perfectly thrown there the way they all landed when she saw it happen because she was directly facing the statue and she said she was very amused when she saw them “fall”. Another tube fell off during Therese’s octave and I recall one of the sisters who sat a few stalls behind me expressing annoyance that her flowers she kept giving to Therese kept falling on my stall and “enough already” type attitude. Therese has quite the sense of humor and she probably did this to make her message crystal clear, leaving no room for doubt.

I smile imagining Therese invisibly taking her hand and knocking them off, to the point where a Sister had “had it”. I remember looking up at Therese knowing I received my answer. God wanted this. But how – and where? A little over a month later, I was perfectly content in waiting for God to give the answer. I trusted Our Lady and pondered daily what the roses meant, yet I was resigned that His will would be fulfilled in His perfect timing. One day I was looking for one of the monastery dogs in the woods (they had a large property) and my Novice Mistress and the Mother Prioress (the very one who watched the roses “fall”) approached me and said shocking words I never saw coming. They said they believed it time for me to leave, that I would indeed “live and die with Mary and be Her secretary” – but not in their community. I told them nothing of my desires and I knew God was speaking through them. I knew at that moment, I would somehow be a Carmelite with the Marian Vow elsewhere.

Since leaving Carmel on November 9th, 2019, I have kept to the strictest solitude of my only exposure with the public, mostly, being Latin Mass and confession, wearing humble lay clothing and head coverings. I opened an Etsy shop back in 2020 that Aflavia and I hope to carry over into our way of life as a form of work “with our hands” as the Carmelite Rule states. Many traditional Catholics even, though they might not know it, do not understand that the work place masculizes women (I realize masculize is not a word, but it is now), strips her of her femininity and teaches her NOT to be solely dependent on God. We also have never had driver’s licenses and I recall a dear Third Order Carmelite friend of ours relaying how this is often the case with young women God calls to the cloister.

He forces us, so to speak, to be entirely dependent on Him to take care of our needs. Aflavia and I have so far safely avoided, and have been sheltered from, the work place, driving, as well as college (I am a proud college drop-out). Our families have been nothing but generous letting us stay in their homes as we wait. After eight years now of living a life of solitude in and out of the cloister, and eleven years of chastity (celibacy) I can confidently say that women belong in the home and are the heart of the home.

Holy Mother Church is a HOUSE, where she teaches, governs and sanctifies all men, and traditional women either belong in the home in the sacrament of marriage where they are the heart of the home, or in a convent, where they are the heart of the monastery. THIS is true femininity. Aflavia and I have been avidly seeking to somehow live Carmel and the Marian Vow and initially I sensed, before meeting Aflavia, that I was called to become a Carmelite Hermitess alone, but as the years progressed it was clear that Our Lady has another daughter in whom She wishes to share this precious charism (Aflavia).

Aflavia found my blog, messaged me through Etsy on the Presentation of Jesus in the Temple/Purification of Mary feast back in 2023 and we struck up months of back and forth conversation. We one day realized that not only did we live in the same state of California, but that we had been to several of the same Latin Masses (including Nevada) and lived a mere 30+ miles from each other. We decided to finally meet in person on September 24th of 2023 (the anniversary of the written Marian Vow Oblation to Therese- no we did not plan this) at the IMMACULATE HEART OF MARY oratory ran by the Institute of CHRIST THE KING, and this is where something truly extraordinary happened.

We were supposed to meet at the 8AM Sunday Mass, but of all mornings there were no Uber drivers available to take me to Mass. There were two more Mass times, 9:30 and 11:15am, but of course I began to panic because it was my day of meeting Aflavia in person for the first time. “Why is this happening?” God loves raising His children’s blood pressure. I happened to look at the bulletin and I could not believe my own eyes. I had been praying again to Therese asking if she wanted Carmel and the Marian Vow with other women, and when I looked down at the SUNDAY Latin Mass schedule, what do I read: SOLEMNITY MASS OF SAINT THERESE OF THE CHILD JESUS. Not only could I not make it to the 8AM, but I had to miss the 9:30, so I could at least sit with Aflavia as we met for the first time as I waited for the 11:15 High Mass.

It was a Divine Set up. A SOLEMN HIGH MASS OF THERESE ON A SUNDAY and randomly in the middle of September? Her Feast was in October, after all. That is practically unheard of and even the priest relayed that day during his homily that this Mass was a special privilege. Aflavia and I have not looked back; we have had temptations to be sure, but the peace and hope remains. Almost immediately and quite miraculously she obtained the four volume set of Carmelite Rite 1938 Breviaries, we providentially met a wonderful seamstress who designed our Carmelite Habits for hopeful future use, and what brought us together was Therese and her yellow roses. It was always yellow. We would pray for them, and she sent that color. That is why that color of triumph has been chosen for our shield of roses on Mary’s Heart. Aflavia hopes to have the religious name Sister Aflavia Rosa of the Resurrection C.S.M. with the feast day of the Assumption of Mary, August 15th. Do you know what the name Aflavia means? It was Mary’s cherry on top! GOLD, BLONDE OR YELLOW. I hope to be Sister Jade Mary Philomena of the Sorrowful Heart C.S.M. with September 15th, Seven Sorrows feast.

Philomena fell like lightning into our laps last year after we attended a Solemn High Mass in her honor where we touched our rose Miraculous Medals to her first class relic. We made her a series of promises if she brings our Lady’s dream to fruition: we will have a shrine in her honor wherever we have a chapel, we will wear her cord under the Habit, have her and Mary’s Immaculate Heart displayed in our cells, make her feast day our community’s principle feast with Mary’s Immaculate Heart and we will name the property after her. My personal promise is I would add her name to mine.

If you ever get a chance to read up on what happens to those who do not keep their promises to Philomena… I would not tempt her. Not only is she powerful with God, but she is feisty. Many will say, “what experience do you have outside two years of Carmel” or “do you have a college degree to be writing?” etc. and my answer to them is simple: Satan had the same attitude toward Our Lady. So, if you are wondering what our “qualifications” are, they are this: we are “little ones”, children. And we all know the verse of Our Lord where He says what happens to the “wise and prudent”. He doesn’t reveal “these things” to them. Philomena was a mere child and yet, look how she so courageously shed her blood for Jesus and Mary. Satan had this attitude toward Mary:

Lucifer thought that God in his power would not choose for Himself what the devil had considered unworthy of his own dignity. (Mary Agreda, Pg. 262-263.)

According to Mary Agreda, Satan had the attitude of “how could an un-qualified Palestinian girl be chosen to be the Mother of God”? Save the credentials argument for Lucifer. The Pharisees also had this attitude toward none other than Our Lord and the apostles (simple fishermen with next to NO experience). We hear them accuse Christ the King thus,

The Jews therefore said to Him: Thou art not yet fifty years old, and hast thou seen Abraham? John 8:57

How doth this Man know letters, having never learned? John 7:15

This is my simple question to you, then, if you are asking us these same questions asked by these same power hungry hypocrites: consider asking yourself, why? Why the credentials argument? If God is calling whom He pleases, when He pleases and we have the holy desire to give Him ALL, don’t you think you might need to check your humility? I also say that with humility. Like Our Lord, we have been schooled in Mary; Our Lord, too, was not formed in the Temple, as Aflavia and I have not been formed in the “normal” religious process, sense of the word. And I can assure you, no amount of religious experience or number of degrees can ever equal all that Mary teaches the soul through Her Marian Vow. In a radical sense, Our Lord is the first One to live this glorious vow, and our credentials are His credentials. Saint Alphonsus Ligouri once lamented that the priesthood was creating little devils; that was during his own time. Can you imagine how much worse it is today with the priesthood and religious life?

We shouldn’t be creating devils, but saints! Consider also, for another moment, that Aflavia and I have been providentially sheltered from the current state of religious life where compromise is either met or true charity is not practiced? I once heard a priest tell me that it takes a mere thirty years to discern the call to the desert; I laughed as I later read how Saint Rose of Lima lived as a hermit and she died exactly at age 30. I thought, “good thing she didn’t wait, she would have been dead!” Through Mary and nothing but Mary, Aflavia and I desire to be Philomena’s Living Rosary, so Mary’s Heart can rest and triumph. Will you help us? Even if it’s solely through praying for us, spreading the word, sharing our website and story, we cannot thank you enough!

HAPPY EASTER, AVE MARIA, CHRIST IS KING!